Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Pigeons



feathers
stuck to the underside of tar, 
wings separated, useless...
You could peel them off the pavement and paste them back together,
stick them to your arms 
and fly too close to the sun - 
do what Icarus did.

this desire to fly that we harbor,
the one that drove Icarus higher and higher, 
our innate need to defy gravity 
that the Wright brothers semi-conquered,
that caused Neil Armstrong to stand on the moon 
(despite what those conspiracy theorists would have us believe), 
it comes from a memory, our spirit's memory.

sometimes I fly in my sleep. 
i have been told not everyone can fly. 
i need a running start or i land in a swamp,
my mind battling the constraints
of my corporeal self
rooting us to the earth. 
if I am already in water when my flying self awakens, 
i usually can't find my way out;
luckily I can always touch the reeds with my feet,
so I never drown.

have you ever noticed, in New York City,
that pigeons rarely succumb to yellow cabs? 

  

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Sortir

"Avoid Exit," she read,
and she stepped into the deluge.
The siren blared behind her -
the rude echo of an emergency -
the door ajar.

Blinking rapidly,
she detached herself
from the neon sign and slipped into the freezing rain, palms upward,
arms outstretched.

If she could just stand there, undiscovered,
awash in the blinding glow
of the locked Chipotle,
stacked stools patiently
awaiting tomorrow's victims,
she would figure out the answer.

Monday, April 8, 2013

influx of peace


palms spread
skyward,
open in meditation,
asking for breath -
the influx of peace -
she paused.

she could detect him
at the edge of her vision,
hovering his hand over top of her palm,
reassuring,
but not touching, not yet,
waiting.

the whisper of a promise,
the moment of serenity
experienced behind closed eyes
meditating on a body
reverberating with the remnants
of low moans
from the Tibetan Singing Bowl.

“Wait,” he said,
and she knew he was coming.

eyes wide shut,
body reverberating,
she paused.

“Wait,” he said.
he was coming,
if she could just wait.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Fashion a Story


Help –
My name is ____
I’m
Tinkerbell?
No, I am gerbera daisy, a pink rose?
Surrounded by women in pantyhose,
green polka dots sprinkled on light pink…
Crap, it would seem I am
taunted by the gently-creaking swing set,
unwilling to live with the insistent witch-opera…

Apologies, I digress.
I met the Error of My Ways,
who laughed at me,
so I chose Anywhere,
leaving Nowhere behind,
carrying my body with me,
to the median on Broadway
across from the Flatiron building,
sipping a grande, iced, skinny vanilla latte.

There, I saw Robin who smiled at me, crookedly,
flitting away to perch in a Burch,
as a woman walked by me, muttering.

The woman was gone as I exhaled my breath,
forgetting that my eyes would disappear
before my toes followed suit
then my knees
my belly button
my –

fr
   ag
       ments.

I’m collecting parts
to fashion a story
that feels familiar.

Say, “Goodnight.”

Monday, January 28, 2013

Shattered


Taunted 
by the gently-creaking 
swing set,
you are reminded
that once you were a child.

            Your tears
         are unlike any
          I have heard:
   The soft, racking sound
     of breaking dreams
            shatters 
        the darkness
            that

f
  a
    l
   l
 s

to

pieces

at our feet.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Choosing Anywhere


She opened her eyes wide, took a good look around, and found that she was living in the middle of who she was and who she wanted to become. It was very confusing, realizing that she was suddenly dispossessed of hard-earned self-knowledge. Becoming is a process, a lasting process, and while she had a vision in mind, neither did she want to stifle possibilities as she avidly pursued her path to Somewhere. She found herself wondering how to change the pattern, how to change her mind, how to renew her soul. She found herself reconsidering her friends, an imperfect man, her apartment, her job, her city, her choices. 

Eyes-wide-shut, with a leap of faith, she discovered she was capable of living. She figured it was possible to renegotiate Love. She found that it might be acceptable to relinquish Love in favor of the real thing, vole or ovel or evol(ve) - whatever that might be, however that might happen. She allowed herself to be jealous, to be annoyed, to be irate...to be calm, to find happiness, to feel free. Not necessarily in that order. She allowed herself to B. Existing is half the battle. Being herself, she discovered, is the other half. Being still, being free, being faithful. Being alive, alive and well. 

Unwilling to live in-between, she discovered what it means to Create. Creation does not have to be a battle. She threw herself, head-first, into the light, rejecting the path to Nowhere, deviating from her path to Somewhere, and choosing Anywhere.